On the other hand, there are some shady dealerships out there. The first place I went to today not only turned me down, but they continued to try and show me lower class (and older) model cars as the hours passed. In the end, I had two options (for double the down payment I was hoping to spend). One was some sort of minivan (a Quest). AS IF! I may have a kid--a teenager, but I'm still young enough to want something at least a little cool. It's not even that so much as it is the thought of putting down double the money for something I would have never thought of buying. The other option was some car that just showed up on one of their other lots--that none of us had seen--with over 100k miles on it (also for double the down payment). My eyes were a little watery as I left there. I was thinking to myself, is this all that there is for me? Do I really have to settle like this?. Then again, I thought there had to be more options. I mean this is just one dealership.
I decided to stop at Carmax on my way home. To sum my experience up, I wish I'd have gone there months ago. I did qualify for a car--at a higher interest rate of course, because of my horrible credit--a car that I'll feel good about driving. Moreover, a car that will boost my self-esteem instead of making me want to stay home everyday. Since they were closing by the time I got there, all we really had time for was the qualifying part. Now that I have qualified, my job over the next day or two is to select a vehicle that matches the requirements/features established (based on my credit, income, etc.). I've already found at least 4 that I like.
I hope to hang on to this good feeling well into tomorrow night--when I have to sit down with a family councilor and my daughter (and hopefully her dad). It is way too late to get into that, but I'll definitely have to get it out soon. I'm a little nervous about tomorrow. To be honest, I don't know how to act. I have so much to say right now, but it's 10pm and I know I need to start preparing for bed. I haven't been getting enough sleep in so long, I believe it is part of what has been making me forgetful lately. That's also a subject that can take up a full post. Anyways, I'll shove off now.
I just had a thought; maybe I should end my posts with all of the things I'm thankful for (at least at that moment). Here goes:
- I'm thankful for the conversation I had with my wise mother. Just when I think no one knows what I'm going through, I realize this woman has seen it all and can actually help me if I let her.
- I'm thankful for the one friend I have that has been there for me even when I've shut everyone out. I'm thankful that she accepts me for me. I'm thankful that she knows me and my flakiness (and mood swings) and understands. She never holds it against me. It's surprising, because of all the friends I used to have, she's the newest. I appreciate her so much and should tell her more often.
- I'm thankful that God made me get off my lazy, procrastinating, butt and go car hunting today.
- I'm thankful for a good experience at Carmax tonight.
- I'm thankful--and proud of myself--for actually coming back and posting a second time today like I said I would. Believe me, I almost didn't.
Goodnight.
*P.S. - Why in the hell would I want a damn minivan? LOL! I'm still single! How would it look if I pulled up to a date with a dang minivan? I don't have a tribe of kids! =/
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